i really don't know what i'm doing anymore

i guess i'm just sitting down and realizing i feel like a has-been.

i feel like i missed out on a lot of chances to actually grow up and i'm playing catch up now.

i don't have a license, i'm still TRYING to get into college, i've YET to take my SAT's and i'm dead broke.

i feel like i'm just waisting my life away.

i hate when i get to thinking like this...

but i really feel like the only thing i ever do with my life is get on the computer and play guitar videogames and shit.

and of course work.

but really, what am i doing with the direction of my life?

i dunno. right now, the only things that are really steadfast in my life rigt now are my relationships with people i care about and music. that's all that's really keeping me going. MIMS man. music is my saviour. well...sort of.

jesus is MY saviour, but only when i play for him do i really FEEL what i'm playing. hopefully i can go somewhere with that.

i don't think i want to go to college. i probably should WANT to go, but i don't. i just wanna play music. maybe i should study that. i'm not sure.

i love music. i have to do something musical with my life.

i have to.





well enough ranting. i'm going to bed.

she didn't call...

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