TALK IS CHEAP

so what do i plan to do about it?


i think i might wanna perhaps start a bible study at my house a day of the week where people might be free. But i don't wanna take out of their freetime.
maybe that could encourage lost people to come to it.

like for example, what lost person is going to wanna come to a bible study on a friday night when they could go get hammered?

but i don't really know who to tell or what to talk about when it happens or whether to do an acoustic praise and worship set or anything.
so i'm gonna pray about it.

but if i do it, it's gonna be called "LOVE BOMB."

yea.

THIS IS HOW I FEEL.

Why do people smile when no one's smiling?
It's cuz they're thinking of someone they're loving
Keep on believing we are meant to be and
Nothing's stopping you and me from going to heaven

Sweetest love

I got the sweetest love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter

Now i'm a climber
This mountain's just my ladder
It gets better
Every second we're together
Baby, it feels so right
A new beginning starts tonight
The reason for wedding songs
Is because of you and me and

The sweetest love

Finally, I can't believe it's you and me

You're my sweetest love

I got the sweetest love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter
C'mon now
I got the sweetest love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter

Now i got that feeling in my gut
Now i need your fire in my life
Now i wanna give you love so much
And i keep on feelin

My sweet, my sweet
Sweetest love

I can't believe you and me
we gotta be

You're my sweetest love

I got the sweetest love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter
C'mon now
I got the sweeter love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter
Alright
I got the sweetest love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
There ain't nothin sweeter
I got the sweetest love
Can't nothin beat it
There ain't nothin sweeter

Sweetest love

I can't believe you and me
we gotta be

For my sweetest love



Thank you Robin Thicke. Again.
He sings my life. I swear...

THIS IS HOW I FELT.

Through the rain girl
I found Jesus
I found you and
I know nothing can take your place girl
Your red lipstick
And i'm just afraid
Cause this is the first time
That i'm not loving you
And i'm not loving you
I got married to the idea
To the notion
That youd always be here with me girl
Like my shadow
And I wish I was there
Just to run my hands through your hair
And i'm just afraid
Cuz this is the first time
That i'm not loving you
And i'm not loving you
Girl you know i'm always thinking of you
Haven't seen the summer since I saw you
Baby don't worry 'bout us
I feel your love
I feel you inside
And I wish I was there
Just to run my hands through your hair
And i'm just afraid
Cause this is the first time
That i'm not loving you
And i'm not loving you
Girl i'm not loving
And i'm not loving you
Girl you know i'm always thinking of you
Haven't seen the summer since I saw you
Baby don't worry bout us
I feel your love
I feel you inside baby
Girl i'm not loving you
You...

of course it isn't that way now. but that moment, this was me.
wow.
thank you Robin Thicke.

my testimony as of now...?

ok so i have to talk tomorrow so this is more of a brainstorming than a real blog...
ok so where was i when cleansing stream first started...?
well i had just gotten saved at camp. like i was already saved, but this was when god really told me what he wanted me to do and i really decided to dedicate my life to him. ya know?
and what's probably bad is that i was living a way i really shouldn't have before then, but i still claimed that i was saved and still played on wed nights and sundays sometimes too.
but i guess that just goes to show how god can STILL use a broken vessel.
but back to the story -
i had just gotten saved, my manager GF broke up with me like the day after i got back home, so i'm still tripping out emotionally and don't really know what to do.
i knew what God wanted me to do, but i just didn't know how or where to even start ANYTHING.
and i remember i happened to show up to church early one sunday morning and ran into renee and she asked me to join cleansing stream.
i'm thinkin to myself...man i dunno. do i gotta pay anything? cuz i'm broke! i can't be doin all o that now. lol
BUT she said don't let payment be the issue, so she handled it all for me. which i still thank her for to this day. :)
but yea, i remember just goin in the first day and enjoying the laid back and intimate atmosphere. there are a couple days where we had to watch videos and we had to do homework i guess you'd call it out of this workbook, but all of these things got me into the habit of constantly exposing myself to the word.
and when you are constantly exposed to the word, something changes inside you. you start to hear the voice of the holy spirit more often and much clearer.
and the whole mission behind cleansing stream is to walk in alignment with God. and the way they have it set up, it's both an easy and powerful experience.
and i remember for me, i always thought before cleansing stream, "ok. yea i love God and all of that, but how do i even go about doing the right thing all the time? i can't. i have to many problems and vices and issues to just stop."
but the only thing i was really complaining about was that i didn't know HOW to go about doing all of this changing. and cleansing stream really helped. it showed me how i'm supposed to go about studying his word and changing the condition of my heart.
now don't get me wrong, i'm not saying i'm this perfect person and i don't do things wrong anymore. because i still struggle with certain things in my life. but now, it's like i can come at them with a confidence i didn't have before. like i'm closer than i've ever been to where i feel i need to be. God's really been watching out for me and taking care of me and showing me things and putting me places where i can really be of use and surrounding me with people who are good to me and care about me. and i'm thankful. but in order to get somewhere, there are always steps.
so i encourage you all to just try it out. it's really meaningful and helpful. it helped me a ton. so yea.
that's it. that's me.


well i guess i'll just say al of that. that won't be too bad.