i'm home

i just got back from work.

i'm tired.

goin out later tonight.

josh's b-day party.

...yeah.

haven't been here in a while.

DARK KNIGHT changed my life.
BOTH times.

Still madly in love with that one chick. ;) THE RIGHT WAY

went to Aaron's today and had mucho fun.

tomo will be very busy so i'm lookin forward to it.

uhhhhhhhhhh

update later i guess?

so i'm not gonna lie

i'm pissed off.

so i had a bad dream

and i'm trying to write it down before i forget.
well i was in my room with the bronski's and i had my old bunk bed for some reason.
well we were talking about jordan flemmeister and were making funny jokes about her. so tiara was there(?) and we sent her to ask jordan (who was also apparently in my house) how she masturbateed. haha
we thought the image would be funny.
so she comes back and says she ain't do it, but laura says go again. tiara comes back WITH jordan who is now all pissed and offended and stuff. and then dad comes in all pissed uz people are yelling so i dip since i have nothing to do with this, but when i come up, i see my uncle and his ex-wife (who were still together in my drea) and no sign of the bronski's. i ask mom and she says they left.
so i go outside to catch themand they're piling in a van to apparently go to new england and devin is driving they ask me to come, but i say no. my family just got here, i'd be in so much trouble...
so they pull out my driveway but not without first knocking every car that was in the driveway out of their way but somehow managing to only leave a mark on MY car. which i'm not even mad about, but i just thought that was odd. when i'm heading upstairs, another one of my aunts, Vet, was there and she was talking crap about the brnski's as they were leaving. and i'm like
"dude, these are people i go WAY back with. some to elementary school. these people are really important friends of mine. it's not like they're never coming back. they just left for now. ok?"
and she got all defensve then. so i head to the kitchen to tell mom,
"hey. i don't appreciate what vet is saying about my friends."
and then mom flips out on me and says one of them stole her music this one time and they can never come to the house again. i can hang with them, but they can never ever be HERE again.
and so i finish picking up nerds off the kitchen floor (again, i don't know. somehow i blamed it on mr. t?) and went up to my room and threw a humongous tantrum in which i was beating the crap out of everything in my room.
then i woke up.

crazy, no?

Amos Lee

Is my favorite person right now.
liked how there was no words between us yesterday. lol
love her.
things are great.
awesome awesome awesome. ;]

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so i read your blog

and i totally had this awesomely thought out reply to it...
but my laptop shut off on me.
asshole.

well basically i agreed with everything but number 2.
the reason being is that when i said that, i just blurted it out without actually explaining the reasoning behind it like i should have.

"well allow me to retort!"

the issues i have to deal with, which we all know about, are issues of lust. it's my problem and my struggle. it's why i like sex and porn and all that so much. so with all of that considered, it would probably be harder for me to turn down sexual relations more so than the next person.

i'm not saying i couldn't do it, because i have done it. not recently, but back when we were just "talkin" i had to kick some bitches to the curb. which was pretty difficult for me to do given the fact that i enjoyed being a pimp. lol but at the end of the day even back then, you were more important than any o dem bitches. ya smell me?

and on a side note, you have really helped me with those issues as well. either you help me act em out or to keep them under control. whichever of the two you decide to actually do helps me not lose my mind or go insane and i thank you for that. :]

and with all these things considered, i would never put myself in a position to where i would even doubt myself for a split second.

so can't happen.

won't happen.


i don't play no games.



love ya. :]

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my honest opinion

i'm sorry about what happened,

but if in the past 8 months i've never done anything for you to doubt our trust and this one insignifigant (to me anyways) thing happens...?

not to say it's insignifigant in the fact that i don't care how you feel, but insignifigant as in i didn't even care enough to remember i even sent it...
and you still are all torn up about it...

i mean... it's cool. i understand.

but i just don't think it should be this important.

it'd be different if i actually did something with some random bitch or whatever.
but this?

idk.

take it how you want to (that's what she said), but i love you and i think our love is WAY bigger than this bull shit situation.

my honest opinion.