i've been

reading alot

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Now playing: Lupe - Superstar (Acoustic Version)
via FoxyTunes

GOD BLESS ME

BLESS!!

Lord, please shine your light down  upon me
 Lord, grant me good fortune don't shun me
Take all this unhappiness from me
 Say, am I just crazy?? Well, GOD BLESS ME!

Now Lord, save me a place there upon the ark
I have been wandering in the dark
 Put me into your collection
Lord, am I not worth your salvation?

It's all a masquerade
 Just who is who,  can't say
Don't leave me in the cold
Just who is fake, who's real?? GOD BLESS ME!

So Lord, why do you watch from the sidelines?
War, it's being fought on the frontlines
Say, what is your final intention?
Lord, I've kinda lost my conviction

It's all a masquerade
 Just who is who, I can't say
Don?t leave me in the cold
 Just who is fake, who's real?? GOD BLESS ME!

BLESS!!

Why do we have a word for truth
 When the whole damn world's an April fool?
How come we find an antidote
 When germs grow fast and break the rules?
Why do I soil my clean white shoes
 When it won't be long before they're old and worn?
Are you sad or are you happy?
 How this pretension makes me yawn

GOD BLESS ME!
 It's all a masquerade
Just who is who, I can't say
 Don't leave me in the cold
Just who is fake, who's real?

It's all a masquerade
 Just who is who, I can't say
Don't leave me in the cold
 Just who is fake, who's real?? GOD BLESS ME!

she's gone...

don't try to miss her too much J.

seriously.

try hard.

I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
A lá peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved

So I won't hesitate no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved

I won't hesitate no more,
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm you

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more,
It cannot wait
The sky is yours!

so after venting

i do feel a bit better.
that n.e.r.d. song helps.
idk these upcoming weeks are gonna be hard and i'm NOT lookin forward to em.
...
shit happens.
just blow it off.

BREAKOUT

IT JUST HAPPENED
SO WHAT
BUT THEY’RE ALL LAUGHING
WHAT’S UP
WHY THE TEARS
HAVE NO FEAR
WE ARE HERE FOR YOU
BUT I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL
I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL WHEN NO ONE CARES

IF YOU FEEL JUST LIKE I FEEL (PUSH PEOPLE)
EVERYTHING’S PLASTIC, NOTHING’S REAL
FUCK YOUR LAWS, MY FATE’S NOT SEALED
WE’RE JUST DANCING NO BIG DEAL
HEY, JUST LET THE BULLSHIT PASS
OR WE’LL SKATEBOARD YOUR ASS
GOT MY BALLS
MY WHEELS
WE’RE JUST DANCING NO BIG DEAL

BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT
BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAK AWAY (PUSH PEOPLE)

ALL YOU CAN BE IS JUST YOU
‘CAUSE YOU’RE REAL, NOT THE PLASTIC TYPE
BUT REALITY SETS IN, YOU’RE STUCK IN THIS PLASTIC LIFE

WHY THE TEARS
WE’RE ALL HERE FOR YOU
BUT I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL
I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL AND I DO CARE

IF YOU FEEL JUST LIKE I FEEL (PUSH PEOPLE)
EVERYTHING’S PLASTIC, NOTHINGS REAL
FUCK YOU LAWS, MY FATE’S NOT SEALED
WE’RE JUST DANCING NO BIG DEAL
HEY JUST LET THE BULLSHIT PASS
OR WE’LL SKATEBOARD YOUR ASS
GOT MY BOMBS
MY WHEELS
WE’RE JUST DANCING NO BIG DEAL

BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT
BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAKOUT, BREAK AWAY (PUSH PEOPLE)

SHIT HAPPENS, JUST BLOW IT OFF
MAN, WE’RE GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL RIGHT
RIGHT, YEA
HEY, SHIT HAPPENS, JUST BLOW IT OFF
YEA, WE’RE GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL RIGHT
RIGHT, YEA

JUST AS LONG AS WE GOT THE SAME THING IN OUR VEINS
YOU AND I, WE ARE BOTH THE SAME
I’LL BAIL YOU OUT, SHOW YOU WHAT YOU SHOULD SEE
ONE LOVE, N.E.R.D.
PEACE

so to explain how i feel...

pissed.

i'm pissed at everything around me.

i don't feel like goin anywhere. i don't feel like doin anything.

and what is the root of this emotion?
let's vent, shall we?:
*i'm working 3day weeks now which totally sucks for my paycheck
*my tv broke today
*crystal is leaving me for like 2 weeks and won't be back for her entire spring break
*crystal's dad hates me and will totally let her go to fucking florida with some random bitch but won't let her go to church with me
*my final fantasy XI won't work s i waisted like a good hundred bucks on it
*i still haven't been refunded by jcpenney
*herbie and patience's relationship is honestly pissing me off with how stupid they both act to each other and it's just aggravating having to be the middle man
*crystal is still grounded and i don't know when i'll see her next and i hate it and it makes me really angry and i'm tired of having to sneak off and meet her in secret and just having to plot out our next meeting makes me so exasperated and i'm really tired of it
*people in church are starting to get on my nerves
*i'm starting to feel lonely again
*i'm not in college nor have i done anything to get me there


so yea. alot.