had a dream

i was hanging out with crys and we were watchin sealab,
but then i went to look for her and she'd already began to walk home.
so i caught up with her, but then jr came to pick us up, but jr had a gun.
i'm like why the f do you have a gun.
so we're riding along and jr's taking us to church, and i'm like
"why are we headed this way, we need to turn around."
so we almost crashed,
pulled into someone's garage to turn around.
then i can't move. jr's doin sumn retarded.
finally crystal picks me up and puts me in the driver's seat and i take her home, but somewhere inbetween me taking her home and actually getting there,
it turned into ridge racer.
and then i woke up.
randomest dream ever.

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nevermind

another lonely night

but yea, i guess i'll hit up grace or sumn.

i talked to taylor. she figures they'll work everything out. i wasn't on her or mike's side at all though and i made it clear, but she was still cool.

damn str8

well... off to clean... and watch 12oz mouse

i'm tired

she's coming back tonight hopefully.
i miss her.
i'm kinda freakin out.
i just need to lay down.

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mother is

dying.

i'm worried about mom the most.

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i've been

reading alot

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GOD BLESS ME

BLESS!!

Lord, please shine your light down  upon me
 Lord, grant me good fortune don't shun me
Take all this unhappiness from me
 Say, am I just crazy?? Well, GOD BLESS ME!

Now Lord, save me a place there upon the ark
I have been wandering in the dark
 Put me into your collection
Lord, am I not worth your salvation?

It's all a masquerade
 Just who is who,  can't say
Don't leave me in the cold
Just who is fake, who's real?? GOD BLESS ME!

So Lord, why do you watch from the sidelines?
War, it's being fought on the frontlines
Say, what is your final intention?
Lord, I've kinda lost my conviction

It's all a masquerade
 Just who is who, I can't say
Don?t leave me in the cold
 Just who is fake, who's real?? GOD BLESS ME!

BLESS!!

Why do we have a word for truth
 When the whole damn world's an April fool?
How come we find an antidote
 When germs grow fast and break the rules?
Why do I soil my clean white shoes
 When it won't be long before they're old and worn?
Are you sad or are you happy?
 How this pretension makes me yawn

GOD BLESS ME!
 It's all a masquerade
Just who is who, I can't say
 Don't leave me in the cold
Just who is fake, who's real?

It's all a masquerade
 Just who is who, I can't say
Don't leave me in the cold
 Just who is fake, who's real?? GOD BLESS ME!

she's gone...

don't try to miss her too much J.

seriously.

try hard.