had a dream my dad died instead of stephen...

and it hurt real bad.
i don't know why i had the dream. it was so random.
and horribly sad. like i wanted to believe so hard that he was alive,
but we had just come from his funeral. and it really kicked it when i worked the next day that my dad died.
it was one of the suckiest dreams of my life.

also had a dream i was running from crazy black people.

odd morning.

oh well. off to work and possibly college with jr?

iSEX

i'm silently losing my mind.
it's becoming harder to control.
like holding this urge back is killing me.

I WANNA FUCK SOMETHING!!

best unknown hip-hop joint ever

Can you let me know?

Hold hands in public
I does it, cool
I dug it
Everything you do
And everything you doesn't
Everything you done
Hope I'm the one you does it to
Hope this trick goes wrong
And I'm cut in two
So I can feel it twice as much as two Lu's
To lose is something that I never wanna do
I'm too loose to check on this track like choo
Choose, to choose, I'd rather have you
Even if it's half
And I'll even hold for the whole if I have to
But I don't wanna one
That's too close to none, come
But get rid of the gun
It's covered in clues
The one that you used
To kill off the player inside
And I brought back some flowers from the funeral for you
You should come and make moves with a brother like uh

i know i would've been here...

well i'm kinda freakin out in general

cuz i feel like i'm doing the same shit all over again.
and i have all this pent up frustration and i don't know what to do with it.
she was pissed last night and i could tell.
i feel like a dickhole.
what should i do?
i am depressed.
well i won't say i'm depressed. i don't quite know how i feel right now...
my head hurts...again...
i just wish things weren't so shitty already and i could just deal with one thing at a time
but everything is happening at once...
i think i'm gonna message jeremy...

well i'm kinda freakin out about tomorrow

"but it's cool.
it could be better.
i don't care.
whatever..."
- Cee-lo Green of Gnarls Barkley

The new Gnarls is off the hook

i'm missing her hardcore. especially since i haven't talked to her in 2 days.
i don't even know what's going on with her.
if anything bad happened...
i'm worried about her...

i'm worried about grant. i'm wearing some sort of blue.
i have to draw a tat for him.
he wants his bro's initials.

dunno if crys is comin with me....
AHHHH
i wanna scream

Kaba Modern is my favorite dance crew ever
i hope they make it through.
their thriller dance was sicknasty!
hardcore
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dunno how to end this...
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i guess i just will....